{"id":3688,"date":"2025-12-28T10:53:49","date_gmt":"2025-12-28T10:53:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/?p=3688"},"modified":"2025-12-28T10:53:49","modified_gmt":"2025-12-28T10:53:49","slug":"i-grew-up-poor-and-i-blamed-my-mom-for-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/?p=3688","title":{"rendered":"I Grew Up Poor\u2014and I Blamed My Mom for It"},"content":{"rendered":"<p data-start=\"98\" data-end=\"143\">I grew up poor, and I blamed my mom for it.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"145\" data-end=\"235\">Years later, on my child\u2019s birthday, she showed up carrying something from my childhood.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"237\" data-end=\"278\">I snapped, \u201cTake this trash and leave.\u201d<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"280\" data-end=\"332\">She didn\u2019t argue. She didn\u2019t cry. She just smiled.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"334\" data-end=\"458\">Recently, my mom passed away. After the funeral, my aunt handed me that same sweater. \u201cDid you ever notice it?\u201d she asked.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"460\" data-end=\"488\">I looked closer\u2014and froze.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"490\" data-end=\"618\">Inside the collar, stitched by hand, were my initials. Imperfect, uneven, like she\u2019d sewn them late at night with tired hands.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"620\" data-end=\"770\">\u201cShe fixed that sweater every winter,\u201d my aunt said. \u201cLet it out as you grew, patched holes. You never noticed because she always made sure it fit.\u201d<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"772\" data-end=\"904\">As a child, I hated that sweater. I hated the secondhand shoes, the empty fridge, the homemade cakes. I blamed her for everything.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"906\" data-end=\"1108\">Inside the hem, I found dozens of tiny stitches\u2014dates, little notes, memories she couldn\u2019t afford to write in a journal. First day of school. Sick days. Snow days. Dreams of being \u201cbig and important.\u201d<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1110\" data-end=\"1208\">She worked two jobs, skipped meals, mended clothes, gave me everything while asking for nothing.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1210\" data-end=\"1281\">That night, I held the sweater and cried like I\u2019d never cried before.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1283\" data-end=\"1398\">The next morning, I showed it to my child. I told them about their grandmother\u2019s love\u2014silent, tireless, enduring.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1400\" data-end=\"1475\">Love doesn\u2019t always announce itself. Sometimes, it just keeps showing up.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1477\" data-end=\"1533\">The richest thing I ever had wasn\u2019t money. It was her.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1535\" data-end=\"1594\" data-is-last-node=\"\" data-is-only-node=\"\">And I\u2019ll try to love my child half as well as she loved me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I grew up poor, and I blamed my mom for it. Years later, on my child\u2019s birthday, she showed up carrying something from my childhood. I snapped, \u201cTake this trash and leave.\u201d She didn\u2019t argue. She didn\u2019t cry. She just smiled. Recently, my mom passed away. After the funeral, my aunt handed me that same &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3689,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3688","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/re2-22.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3688","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3688"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3688\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3690,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3688\/revisions\/3690"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3689"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3688"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3688"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lifestorybuffering.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3688"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}