Three weeks after my ten-year-old daughter Lily died in a car crash, I was barely existing. My husband, Daniel, had survived, but he moved like a man who wished he hadn\u2019t. Our house felt frozen in the moment she left it.<\/p>\n
One foggy morning I sat at the kitchen table, holding a mug Lily had made me, when I heard frantic scratching at the back door. It was Baxter, her golden retriever mix. His eyes were urgent. In his mouth was something yellow.<\/p>\n
Lily\u2019s sweater.<\/p>\n
I thought it had been taken with the rest of her things. My knees nearly buckled. When I reached for it, Baxter pulled away and ran through the gap in the fence Lily used to slip through.<\/p>\n
I followed him to the old shed in the empty lot.<\/p>\n
Inside, behind broken tools, was a nest made from Lily\u2019s clothes. Curled in the middle lay a calico cat and three newborn kittens. Baxter placed the sweater beside them like he was completing a mission.<\/p>\n
It wasn\u2019t from the accident. It was the spare Lily had hidden.<\/p>\n
She had been caring for them.<\/p>\n
Daniel and I brought the little family home. Feeding them, watching them breathe, I felt it \u2014 Lily\u2019s love, still alive in the world.<\/p>\n
That night, for the first time, I slept.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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